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Chapter 1

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< meow > My Life

< meow > What's good for the soul

Here starts a true beginning to Carolyn's Diary: January 3, 1995

< meow > Truth Functional People

< meow > The structure of the WWW

< meow > An old soul

< meow > TFP continued

< meow > The evening

< meow > .Peace.

< meow > Thoughts

< meow > Page 2

< meow > A new bravery

< meow > Sadness

< meow > Who am I?

< meow > Nervous Systems

< meow > Cartwheels from the edge of reality

< meow > Untitled

< meow > Loops

< meow > How I met...

< meow > Apologies

< meow > A new Start

< meow > Vrrrrooooom

< meow > I am not Mary Kay

< meow > Untitled

< meow > Substitute your favourite curse

< meow > Later On...

< meow > Cartwheels from the edge of reality

< meow > Resolution

< meow > Awakening in the morning's sunshine.

< meow > Further thoughts on the nature of things

< meow > Page 3

< meow > Newaccountitis

< meow > Things I shouldn't say.

< meow > What difference does it make?

< meow > moooo

< meow > It was my turn

< meow > Velvety paws

< meow > A story I read

< meow > Murphy's Law is true

< meow > This is not a test

< meow > Wishes

< meow > Why the future is not usefully predictable more than once

< meow > Nothing much

< meow > The day after

< meow > Dismissal

< meow > Page 4

< meow > Suspended

< meow > Newness

< meow > Continuation

< meow > Birds Chirping

< meow > Tempests passed

< meow > Toys

< meow > Spaces

< meow > I'm out

< meow > Changes

< meow > What constitutes a favour?

< meow > Hatchlings

< meow > The belaboured point

< meow > Respite

< meow > Hi

< meow > Page 5

< meow > Testosterone

< meow > Tired

< meow > Travelling

< meow > The Tooth Fairy

< meow > At Last

< meow > The End?

< meow > Fear

< meow > Ferocity

< meow > Virtual thinking

< meow > Virtual Breathing

< meow > Off the Net

< meow > Ontology

< meow > Further Along

< meow > Page 6

< meow > Sunning Day

< meow > After words

< meow > Tired Feet

< meow > Mrrm

< meow > Aaron

< meow > Content

< meow > Peep

< meow > Smoother Still

< meow > Untitled

< meow > Cat Politics

< meow > Weathering

< meow > Weathered

< meow > Cactii

< meow > Visual Test

< meow > Casualties

< meow > Fundamentals

< meow > ?

< meow > Paris

< meow > Why Not

< meow > it's nice to know ...

< meow > Page 7

< meow > Moody Me

< meow > Hot and Hungry

< meow > Just Another Emotion

< meow > ...

< meow > Reverbiage

< meow > And on I go...

< meow > Through

< meow > Titular Beginnings

< meow > Black Leather

< meow > Neko is fun

< meow > Furry Endorsement

< meow > Letter

< meow > Meditudes

< meow > Causality Loops

< meow > Further and further away

< meow > I-Tuitions

< meow > Full of ..

< meow > Burning Bridges

Chapter 2: Peter and his wolf

< wait > Page 8

< wait > IKEA

< wait > Later: Niceness

< wait > Fluff

< wait > Kanadian

< wait > Lead

< wait > ...

< wait > Time Travel

< wait > More mushrooms

< wait > Gophers in our midst

< wait > Wondering through the daffodils in the rain

< wait > Last chance to get on board

< wait > Well-to-do Nothings

< wait > Cats

< wait > Page 9

< wait > Is there a point?

< wait > Time flies like an arrow. Fruit flies like a banana.

< wait > Eight O'Clock

< wait > Fish under water

< wait > Another Sunday

< wait > S'toon Travels

< wait > life...

< wait > ©

< wait > no room for honesty left

< wait > further thoughts

< wait > like a fool

< wait > Sounding Good

< wait > Grief

< wait > What everything means

< wait > Sunday again

< wait > email poetry and cardinals

< wait > justified true beliefs

< wait > Page 10

< wait > Fancy and F_____d

< wait > Artifacts

< wait > Restless

< wait > mornings

< wait > no time

< wait > And another Survey Sunday

< wait > eight plants and me

< wait > Flies

< wait > Travelled by aliens

< wait > Ooops

< wait > ...

< wait > fillahcohfi

< wait > Bad puns no excuse

< wait > Offline and tired

< wait > just think it

< wait > Traces of democracy

< wait > Furthering just causes

< wait > Page 11

< wait > arrival immanent

< wait > Abounding Thanks

< wait > Future Positive

< wait > Loops

< wait > Fortune and Flowers

< wait > abcdefg h

< wait > pain

< wait > Sunrise

< wait > Higher and Higher Still

< wait > Telling all about...

< wait > Half Birthday!

< wait > Another coffee and granola morning

< wait > Later

< wait > Chimney smoke

< wait > 6 Chamber Magazine

< wait > Shallowness

< wait > Strings

< wait > Clock day

< wait > Page 12

< wait > Adherence and Tactics in a Modern World

< wait > Recovering off-line thoughts

< wait > Fragile Egos and other fairytales

< wait > Trip to a doctor's office

< wait > On manipulating people

< wait > Frame People

< wait > Contagion loose

< wait > I see things

< wait > SpaceAge Materials

< wait > Miau

< wait > Ironic twists of irony

< wait > The owls are not what they seem

< wait > Caricature

< wait > Snow and friends

< wait > Page 13

< wait > Aesop

< wait > Grey and Rainy Sunday... with Moppins

< wait > Further Thoughts on Life

< wait > Odd

< wait > busi

< wait > Extenuations

< wait > Resurrection

< wait > New Toys Day

< wait > curious truth

< wait > Nerves

< wait > Point again, Sam

< wait > Later on

< wait > three things

< wait > Churning thoughts solidify

< wait > Page 14

< wait > Company and Cats

< wait > As Is..

< wait > problem

< wait > Reunion

< wait > A Promise to Ritu

< wait > More things

< wait > pressenter

Chapter 3

< look > Page 15

< look > Looking

< look > Off

< look > England Tripping

< look > Cool sunny England

< look > The eve of Scotland

< look > Home at last!

< look > From the Past

< look > Faded patches

< look > Where the wave diminishes

< look > Washed in rising sunlight

< look > gotta run

< look > prrrm

< look > Much later I think

< look > Underneath the snowbanks

< look > extenuations

< look > G'night

< look > Page 16

< look > Old thoughts born on memory

< look > Losers? Where?

< look > mum

< look > Just fine, Not

< look > further thoughts on the state of the world in my head

< look > Once upon a space, Cyberspace

< look > Lying here

< look > Raquets

< look > membrane

< look > post fast

< look > A swish of capacchino

< look > ... and a brace of cold water

< look > This 24 hours in Cyberspace

< look > just another day in cyberspace

< look > purrr

< look > Page 17

< look > island weather

< look > warm sun beach days Hey Man

< look > Forever honest

< look > Bath time

< look > hatchet

< look > slivered crumbling glass

< look > blue and green / grue and bleen

< look > cyberstar

< look > obstreperousness

< look > swelling

< look > glue

< look > fantasy space

< look > Page 18

< look > Again a Sunday

< look > orbital decay

< look > religious points

< look > outside the fridge

< look > further future thoughts

< look > existential angst, not

< look > fuddled

< look > gathering momentum

< look > dandelions and daffodils

< look > variations, no theme

< look > felicity

< look > several small thoughts

< look > infinite concepts

< look > towards sagacity

< look > total relaxation: New York

< look > every person's daze

< look > wow

< look > exciting finally

< look > prrrr says Fleiss

< look > Page 19

< look > fortunes

< look > a quick taste

< look > my amusements

< look > calming excercise

< look > ??

< look > a sunday morning after ALL

< look > kjsdhfkhsdkjff

< look > a day without sunshine, or, validation

< look > Easter Friday

< look > later

< look > fortune serving

< look > orange feather dusters

< look > late Easter night

< look > Page 20

< look > cats

< look > more orange feathers

< look > twisted inside

< look > what to write

< look > breathing slowly

< look > isp

< look > lines of power

< look > a date

< look > distinct holidays

< look > pomegranite talk

< look > gullible travels

< look > little yellow tulips

< look > tendrils of decency

< look > phew

< look > attributions of recognition

< look > phasing liguid glass

< look > A fast day

< look > Where have the sparrows gone?

< look > doing this right

< look > Page 21

< look > a new day

< look > fuck you

< look > later I'll write

< look > later is now and I am alone, finally

< look > soothing words

< look > further and on

< look > cruising through the mind in overdrive

< look > I get it

< look > new traditions in naming diary entires

< look > a cool morning

< look > details

< look > where eagles fly

< look > Getting a little closer

< look > a few days of rain

< look > a warm bath at sunrise

< look > so tired

< look > ask not

< look > forget it

< look > jezuz

< look > refreshing new headspace

< look > azura khan

Chapter 4: Media Dayz

< meow > Page 22

< meow > the three

< meow > where are the rains

< meow > flirp, or, how people meet

< meow > rain still

< meow > unsun

< meow > we were playing

< meow > whether or not

< meow > fully

< meow > progress

< meow > worth it

< meow > edged awareness of things different

< meow > coffee steaming

< meow > e-volition

< meow > hesitate not

< meow > summer solstice

< meow > I'm an asshole

< meow > Page 23

< meow > picnic

< meow > it

< meow > jokers in the deck

< meow > bleeeeeeeeep

< meow > May I say something?

< meow > multiple cation

< meow > glitter

< meow > tekikl prahblemz n th ehyr

< meow > further furthers

< meow > fg

< meow > Blue Moon

< meow > extended ought-tos

< meow > raining snails and horsefeathers

< meow > suspicions

< meow > suspicions

< meow > filler

< meow > what have I done?

< meow > wearing down callouses

< meow > miauuu from Moppins

< meow > Page 24

< meow > what

< meow > kettles of mice

< meow > listen closer

< meow > livelier lying

< meow > dreams all night

< meow > peanut jam

< meow > between meetings

< meow > mistik

< meow > nurturing nether knowns

< meow > optimistic and otherwise occupied

< meow > peep

< meow > qery

< meow > riddle me this

< meow > rather later than now

< meow > honestly, who am I?

< meow > night crawling

< meow > simlicity on the hoof

< meow > splendid, it's over

< meow > what is the right question to ask?

< meow > cats and landlords safely parked in orbit

< meow > jump highly and quickly

< meow > Page 25

< meow > sensory summations

< meow > kryptoanarchy

< meow > sorrow

< meow > pillory

< meow > A letter to a friend

< meow > emminent thoughts

< meow > fiddley dteails

< meow > everything starts with f

< meow > mice mornings

< meow > trying to find a quiet space

< meow > a differnet friend, another letter

< meow > vines awaggling

< meow > puddles of letters

< meow > in pursuit

< meow > defeat

< meow > looping around the answer

< meow > calmer waters and tea

< meow > dreams of tomorrow's future

< meow > Page 26

< meow > friends

< meow > twogetherings

< meow > f

< meow > effort and disipline

< meow > trepidation and moppins

< meow > enveloping numerals

< meow > h

< meow > something funny didn't happen

< meow > hatred

< meow > Truer visions and small talk

< meow > treetops

< meow > wroting

< meow > Page 27

< meow > exoticsdeath where she goes

< meow > really true truth

< meow > beam me down again

< meow > little bits of fire

< meow > what thinkest them

< meow > WN

< meow > g

< meow > depression and the flu: both contagious

< meow > comments feeling warm

< meow > flipping the pages of life

< meow > sleep

< meow > giddy waters

< meow > I never did it

< meow > cont'd

< meow > smiles

< meow > I have choosen the path

< meow > excitment, so easy

< meow > A cool fall day, my half-birthday

< meow > Flower

< meow > Page 28

< meow > Baending the lienes of truith

< meow > Slowing down to slug-bait

< meow > a day goes by

< meow > I've had enough of this

< meow > Caught up in emotional webs

< meow > an extra hour of thought

< meow > from underneath and overhead

< meow > Fishing in the fish bowl

< meow > spider's prints

< meow > logging

< meow > a sunday of sun and snow

< meow > What am I thinking?

< meow > free introspection

< meow > Where humans fail to tread

< meow > feathery thoughts

< meow > Thoughts on the what is

Chapter 5: Questioning decisions made

< hold > Page 29

< hold > names

< hold > Calmistry

< hold > truly normal hoops to jump through

< hold > scared to talk

< hold > High hills afar

< hold > cozy pickels

< hold > Passed the butter

< hold > nothing in particular catches at my fingertips

< hold > Edges on the walls

< hold > eight am

< hold > five pm

< hold > to be continued

< hold > acerbic rembrances

< hold > whispering in print

< hold > fishlettes

< hold > A Real World Example

< hold > x & y

< hold > day beyond days

< hold > remeber those Sundays

< hold > But how can I know?

< hold > Page 30

< hold > sliding on the icing

< hold > frost bytes

< hold > Virtual entrapment

< hold > Virtual understandings

< hold > the space between my thoughts

< hold > Very often I sit alone

< hold > I know that.

< hold > dawn

< hold > everglade

< hold > Extruded middles

< hold > thoughts on god and lipstick

< hold > jury trial

< hold > later that same day..

< hold > small fish, small pond

< hold > Volumes of self-indulgent crap

< hold > fields of ease

< hold > Internet Inquisition

< hold > boxed in day

< hold > Page 31

< hold > It's about time and energy.

< hold > a pittsburgh attitude

< hold > A new year

< hold > storm over, I'm relieved

< hold > an office interior

< hold > just some justs

< hold > mourning

< hold > worsenings

< hold > journey towards loser

< hold > it's just that

< hold > What is going on?

< hold > Good for three days.

< hold > Flowers, Washington, Louise

< hold > A plan in Washington

< hold > Flick on

< hold > afterwards

< hold > today I shall take the time to think

< hold > Weapons of love, and othe rmovie titles

< hold > fractally forlorn

< hold > Was wanting

< hold > pain

< hold > Page 32

< hold > one two seven

< hold > simply not the same

< hold > personas

< hold > A difference is also a change

< hold > fortune 1

< hold > out of the norm and into the tempest

< hold > will this get out htere

< hold > the world in your pupils

< hold > seasons of time

< hold > limes

< hold > softly flow the tears of change

< hold > fondliness

< hold > so really anyway

< hold > elopes

< hold > exceptions to tendencies

< hold > the story of the rabbit and the hound

< hold > and another day

< hold > devnul

< hold > a brief look into the

< hold > more thought than action

< hold > tulip petals and dust

< hold > the other self

< hold > under the wavelength of pure green

< hold > what is this here thing

< hold > Page 33

< hold > evidentiary paste

< hold > to the left of center

< hold > control freaked out

< hold > eventually life ends

< hold > left of right, center

< hold > ruminating and cogitating on nothing but

< hold > tributaries of the heart

< hold > A time again

< hold > alright already

< hold > snow whitening the planet

< hold > following a follower

< hold > fgfgfg

< hold > quarrying deeper

< hold > nine to eight

< hold > tremulo

< hold > sweetening and sour

< hold > CS Friedman

< hold > the white carnation at my doorstep

< hold > walking ever so gently through a briar patch

< hold > technical abstraction

< hold > recriminate

< hold > post recrimintation

< hold > Page 34

< hold > sneaking into the future

< hold > not forver and always

< hold > What is it to you, anyway?

< hold > together with the insects

< hold > expectations and exceptions

< hold > under weather worn

< hold > pursuing the pursuit of better things

< hold > one more entry

< hold > so hard

< hold > one day more, or less

< hold > anon

< hold > the following is an excerpt from

< hold > there were flowers

< hold > over and above my own expectations

< hold > the real thing

< hold > feathery errors

< hold > the teeth of truth

< hold > Page 35

< hold > Maying day

< hold > adventures in true love

< hold > Did I do that?

< hold > hold on to the center

< hold > fortuitousness

< hold > dressed to live

< hold > exceptions as rules

< hold > etc

< hold > tendencies to remember

< hold > several kings cooking

< hold > vaguen

< hold > ultra-cool thoughts

< hold > terr a

< hold > several small solitudes

< hold > empires of gloom

< hold > several more

< hold > the results of living

< hold > expectional

< hold > niarehtretfa

< hold > linkage dreams

< hold > under the spaces shorn

< hold > peanuts in the meadow

Chapter 6: A mounting furor for life

< eyes > Page 36

< eyes > sev al er

< eyes > fun ease

< eyes > and underneath

< eyes > what I arrive at

< eyes > seve

< eyes > cannabalizing vegetation

< eyes > and the wind blows back steam

< eyes > exemplar

< eyes > oxygen molecules are here to stay

< eyes > simply bs

< eyes > effervescent bubbles pop

< eyes > nothing

< eyes > less

< eyes > Page 37

< eyes > falconer

< eyes > canaries being round and all

< eyes > rose petal blue

< eyes > perhaps several thoughts

< eyes > surfacing outside

< eyes > layers of scepticism

< eyes > time and energy abiding

< eyes > motorcycling

< eyes > of Carolyn

< eyes > a delayed day

< eyes > testing 123

< eyes > sure-footing

< eyes > sqf

< eyes > incursion

< eyes > traffic jam

< eyes > Page 38

< eyes > bookish vibration

< eyes > troubador lady

< eyes > amendment

< eyes > wrinkling mirrors

< eyes > just came from the

< eyes > lesser ends

< eyes > The Iota Eon

< eyes > Sundays raging on a Tuesday

< eyes > under the blossoms there are beetle tracks

< eyes > hel_

< eyes > from the past

< eyes > The velcro days

< eyes > mourning again

< eyes > pencil lead holes

< eyes > other ease

< eyes > a...

< eyes > what is it?

< eyes > stealth enrichments

< eyes > airing out coats

< eyes > racing waves

< eyes > Page 39

< eyes > elephantine footsteps in the dust

< eyes > The center of the universe

< eyes > the email alert

< eyes > incarnationesque

< eyes > quietly edging out of the winner's circle

< eyes > decking the cards

< eyes > m

< eyes > bathing the wings in oil

< eyes > but why

< eyes > callusion

< eyes > Do I still have time

< eyes > more edges

< eyes > Alsatian vaguery

< eyes > slogan

< eyes > a journey without a goal

< eyes > ever more stirring inside

< eyes > forever entangled by gossip

< eyes > under the sun

< eyes > sad

< eyes > harvest

< eyes > but

< eyes > extenuations

< eyes > Page 40

< eyes > Funny you shouldn't ask.

< eyes > copper edges

< eyes > Were there funny things in the universe at some point?

< eyes > <PPP>

< eyes > a crab, a canary, and summer jam

< eyes > vapid renaissance

< eyes > temporal how

< eyes > From within the grey walls

< eyes > outer space

< eyes > traverse

< eyes > after

< eyes > red spider wandering

< eyes > we're still in vr

< eyes > several hours in the night

< eyes > xoxoxo

< eyes > The setting

< eyes > Feeling the fool

< eyes > Page 41

< eyes > sheerest thought

< eyes > Were there times like this before?

< eyes > tender vibes

< eyes > two fish

< eyes > In memory of my life

< eyes > CHROMBASHIRE

< eyes > and on

< eyes > On occasion

< eyes > true test

< eyes > a dinner conversation

< eyes > a noun phrase to verb

< eyes > more new beginnings

< eyes > f

< eyes > colding

< eyes > literary facsism

< eyes > a truffles life

< eyes > sweetly falling brown leaves

< eyes > swallowing C's

< eyes > joust lance

< eyes > Fortune 14 million

< eyes > open for viewing

< eyes > Spelling myself

< eyes > under way

< eyes > sheerest petal

< eyes > purrifurry

< eyes > ah yes, traffic jamming

< eyes > little edges bigger dreams

< eyes > treackle weather

< eyes > hallucination

< eyes > trembling trying

< eyes > the once over

< eyes > no title

< eyes > Page 42

< eyes > taking the risk

< eyes > vague subject lines

< eyes > so too they say

< eyes > distinguishing frogs

< eyes > funnel

< eyes > sliver of life

< eyes > spending the time

< eyes > filling the time of my life up with ambition

< eyes > Another offline entry

< eyes > the meanderings of the mind

< eyes > late in the night: second thoughts on life

< eyes > Wish it were not so

< eyes > evalues

< eyes > What the tortoise said

< eyes > taking breathing seriously

< eyes > Taking breathing seriously

< eyes > One thing at a time

< eyes > filling up on moon cake

< eyes > blfs

< eyes > download

< eyes > hey

Chapter 7:

< true > Page 43

< true > canadian retro

< true > swimmingly open

< true > lots of details

< true > s-ing

< true > Spilling over

< true > fairer weather

< true > opp kno

< true > enthralled planetary motion

< true > once time stopped

< true > and start

< true > veriform hearts

< true > various

< true > e and f

< true > and still nothing

< true > just me

< true > smaller things

< true > even smaller things

< true > small tyrannies

< true > Is it the smallest of all?

< true > fenders

< true > smaller ancients

< eyes > Page 44

< true > living and dying

< true > I didn't finish

< true > inevitability

< true > re flec tion

< true > virtual thought

< true > of time and fortune

< true > not writing out of shock

< true > confusion

< true > tendency to

< true > trebble

< true > Do we really think?

< true > hypnotic

< true > virtual expiration dates

< true > tired

< true > What goes around gets dizzy

< true > What of it?

< true > of no interest to anyone

< true > xmas gap time coming soon

< true > seclusions

< eyes > Page 45

< true > swing seating

< true > consideration

< true > cold coffee crystals in water

< true > Who was Susan?

< true > In the median, there sits us.

FINISHED - Dec 12, 1997

< hope > Page 48: Another Time

< hope > so much time