From: m@shift.com Date: Fri, 25 Oct 1996 17:56:25 -0500 Organization: Shift Magazine To: clburke@passport.ca Subject: friday
friday, 25.96.
5:53pm
dear carolyn,
I read your some of your diary, first on saturday then today (friday). I
was pissed seeing you so pissed off and angry (all those typos
obviously because the keys were taking a pounding. Youre right, it seems
always a case of people saying "I want to fuck you or fight you." And
yet we seem to always judge ourself more on our relationships with
others than with ourselves. When we're too placid we look for a fight.
When we're not getting "it" we want it, but right after we feel sick
about need or desires.
Anyway...I dont know how to enter such a discourse (yours) but I can identify with "your need or desire" to put everything on the table...(NOTHING IS PRIVATE, ALL IS SACRED)...although I always fall short myself wanting to be who I think I "should be." Wanting to live how I think life should be lived. Wanting to be honest to myself and evryone else. But life is surreal, isnt it???
How long are you going to keep this up? Do you write everyday?
I'll end now because I dont want to infuse "you" with all "my" bullshit, but I will return to your words...why im not sure...probably because I like your honesty.
have a better weekend, protest your-self.
hugo