I have a low level malaise going fairly constantly these days. Neko was a friend who I miss and simply wish well. I think that this is different from what is normal to think -- so let me explain a bit. I don't feel in need of condolences in any way. This is unlike when I moved out from Gilmour actually. If I could ask a favour of people it would be that each tries to be happy about the possible happiness of the cat as a free electron moving through the warmed copper that constitutes our society's cat friendly places. Female cats are protons, male unneutered cats electrons, and male neutered cats are like bound electrons. The people are the neutrons (though they come in good and bad flavours). Neko was when I met him a free floating electron, as is the Kitten. These guys might enjoy their stay, but they wander far and travel a lot - something which is more important than a good home in some cases. Last weekend turned out to be a telling thing about him. I still think of him as my friend but I understand his lifestyle and how I fit into it and how I fell short.
My responsibility now lies only in making sure he wasn't locked up against his will or injured. That is it -- as it always was.